I had really bad experiences with people from those types of websites. Most people (girls and guys alike) are attention whores and couldn't care less about getting to know you as a person. In general people piss me off, and I have very little patience for foolishness now.

Arq, ittybitty:

You guys make me smile. I reaallllllllly should have gone on about my devil worship and all the other crap the media labels us "goths" with doing.

Oh well, there's always next time. NEEEEEXT TIIIIIIIIIIIME!


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My dating site experiences were all total nightmares as well... I finally decided against visiting them again when I got a message on xmas day last year calling me an "ugly bitch"... I suddenly realised that I didn't that kind of attention and I deleted all information in my profile and left.



On a sad note, my family are all sad today as we had to have our oldest cat put to sleep... she'd been diagnosed with diabetes and thyroid problems. As she hated being handled we thought about it for ages, and discussed it and came to the conclusion that the kindest thing to do would be to let her go peacefully. Had she been younger than 18 we might have felt differently about the twice daily insulin injections for the rest of her life, but adding all of the "cons" together they vastly out-weighed the "pros" and she is now at peace and not in pain anymore.

I felt like a total bitch when I signed the papers to authorise the injection, and neither Mum or I could stay to watch her go. We left the vets and promptly burst into uncontrollable tears in the car park. I feel better now, I know it was for the best, but there is still a hole in my heart where Gem used to be. Yes she was miserable, cantankerous and sometimes downright vicious, but we also had her for 12 years and you get used to the little foibles of animals when you have them for a long time. I hope that we did a little something to prove to her that not all humans were like her first owners, they abused her and eventually abandoned her on a local heath to fend for herself. If nothing else she always had food to eat, water to drink, and a soft, warm bed to sleep in at night.

The weather was also apt, it started raining on the way home... for some reason death always hits deeper when the sky is grey and the rain is lashing the windows. I admit that when the sun came out this afternoon I did feel better... but that could be because I think I cried myself dry this morning

As someone who had to have a pet put down within the last three months or so, I feel for you.

Hello, everybody!

I've found myself in a funk lately about my life and what I want to do with it. I've been a "writer" my whole life but recently haven't had any faith in my work. I feel that everything I produce is garbage, although I've been told otherwise. I'm not one to talk about my problems with anyone, as I keep to myself but I figured I'd post to you all for advice.

Thank you in advance...

Aww Minty. *hugs* I'm so sorry for your loss. Putting a pet down is very hard to do (I had to do that two years ago).

Necro, I'm sure your writing is great. It takes time to be at least a little confident about your writing. Just keep at it, all you have to do is write for yourself and it should be fine.

Very sorry about your cat, but remembre, you did a good thing. *hugs*

I had to watch my bunny suffocating to death, I had an emergency appointment at the vet, he couldn't do anything and afterwards said, that me bringing the bunny to him, gave the bunny the rest and killed it. I say the vet killed my bunny, makes me feel better than thinking that I did it. (which I didn't, the bunny was suffocating, duh, logically you go to the vet...)

I just saw the lovliest gothic room fountain ever, little dragon sitting on a bowl and there's light and mist and awwwww
I'll get a new haircolour tomorrow, but I don't know what I'll get, I'll find something, got pink and turquoise now, probably gonna get atlantic blue

Necro: Try listening to music that makes you think, or inspires some sort of emotion in you. Take that emotion, and turn it into a story. I know everyone is different, but this helps me when I'm having brain farts, or I feel like everything I write is bad.

Thank you orlok, Dragonwings and cutty... it means a lot to me

Minty, I sent you a PM, but I'll give you an extra hug here: {{{Minty}}}

I'm pretty happy right now, because I found a German edition and a Spanish edition (both published in 1983) of Kate Greenaway's Language of Flowers. I already had English and French editions of the book. Still looking for an Italian edition (or any other language). I'm a nut for collecting The Language of Flowers in different languages!

-- Nephele

Thank you Dragon and IttyBitty for your input.

Necro: something that stimulates me is to go out and experience something.

A cemetery just after sunset, and imagine a dark and terrible force pulling one into and through death into a place of great peace, every rustle of a bush sounds like a cannon blast. Waking for but a moment then returned into peace, the world as you knew it receding away until it is like a presence outside yourself where you experience the incredible beauty which is the created world like could not be known while residing within its confines. A long slow walk through the streets gothed up, chilly, with the stars out watching the moon hovering over the buildings etc. going to a lake at night and peering at the light of the stars rippling over the waves, it's beauty known by the exquisite agony which is the witness of its existence. a dock lit up nearby transforms into a new York pier with shadowy figures, what is their story? The lights of the distant city glow like a beacon pointing to it's past, present, and future. Anyway. I'm no writer but maybe there are some ideas that help you find an experience that works for you?

Minty, Cutty, I'm sorry to hear about your cat and bunny - both stories made me really sad. *hugs*

Necromantic, I'm not sure you are looking for tips to get on with your writing or are looking for something else to do. But I wouldn't give up on a dream easily, if I were you. Maybe you can ask some friends, who are going to be honest yet constructive, what they think of your work? Or even an editor for a newspaper/publishing house (depending on what kind of writing you're pursuing)? If you're looking for other carrier options, then there's another thread about careers with suggestions.

Alice, are you able to hang on with everything that's going on in your life? And have you got one of those appartments? Don't give your new address to you ex if you fear that he will show up and be violent again.

Thanks nachtvlinder, it was ok with the bunny, i did what I could I still got my amazing black (but blind) bunny Such a smartypnats that animal is.

I got my new haircolour, Directions Lagoon Blue, hope it'll look good.
AAAAAAAAANNND, I just aplied for an "honorable" job, which means no payment, but I don't know why they didn't call it voluntary, at the local zoo's bat emergency centre. It includes a free course about bats with a diploma and an exam. I am sooooo hoping they accept me :D:D

Yep, Alice, I'm repeating what all the others said before me and I hope you will do fine x