Puck, what orlok said is true. Your remorse shows that you are a good person. I hope things work out for you!

harpy, I'm glad you get to see LS. Hope you two have fun.

I finished with summer school yesterday. I feel a lot better now. Started going to this therapy/meditation group and it's pretty interesting. Just me and 5 other women (including the psychologist).

Random thought - If Ayn Rand and Gregori Rasputin some how had a child, they would probably have the most piercing eyes in the world, just by judging photos of both Rand and Rasputin because at least to me, their eyes stand out.

The kid would have eyes that could make Atlas shrug and cure people.

One week down, two and a half more to go and he'll be home, and I can start to feel alive again!

I just applied to work as a writer for a film company. Sometimes in life, I believe that one has to just go for stuff even if one doesn't have the qualifications on paper. I believe I have the ability to create and write screenplays, and I hope I've communicated this in my cover letter to the company. I just need the opportunity to show off my skills to the world.

That's excellent news, orlok! I'm so happy for you, ahhh! <3 I hope you get the job!

Good luck orlok! I hope you get the job.

Thank you, Necro, thank you Dragonwings.

good luck orlok

Alucard: Thank you for your reply a few pages back. I'm sorry I didn't reply, I saw it, I just felt too much like crap to force myself to write something.

I feel like such a failure and drama queen at the same time. It's so easy to think of oneself as victim, but so many people out there actually have it bad...

Ohh, good luck, orlok. Write something when you hear back from them!

Good luck. I hope you get the job!

Well, I quickly found a how-to on basic screenwriting. I'm not sure how accurate it is, but it might help me get started if I'm selected for the job


I've also re-booted my blog and have begun adding posts to that. Because I feel like my *new* blog is more fit for public consumption and less a constant stream of vitriol, vomit, and emotional diarrhea on my part - I see no problem in sharing it here. I also feel comfortable enough on Gnet now that I can share more of myself in a different way than before.

http://orlokknyghtshroude.blogspot.ca/

And with any luck, the kid would be a hardcore Marxist, just to spite its parents.

Teeheehee! That would be fun.

Somebody should write a book about that...I'd read it.

Oh man, I agree. You can't just sit back and not take an opportunity. What if you do well and make it? Good luck btw. <33

This reminds me of the college credit program I got into recently, I want to learn how to animate. I've always dreamed of becoming a cartoonist or animator. I see myself having my own shows, one that's mature and scary and comedic, one that's all blue humor and random but follows up a story too...somewhat. And a couple of movies that are horror but okay to watch for everyone. Like Burton's movies. I remember recently my bro got a phone call from the program, I had just woke up and heard him in the other room. He then spoke to my mom when i got down and said I can get a 15,000$ in scholarship. But damn, I hope that happens! I wanna get in a college I actually like and is strictly art. I wish I could go out of state but it's...expensive. One day...*sigh*